Day 5? Already. I cannot believe that I haven't cheated. This is so un-like me. Usually, by day 2 I have eaten a candy bar. Last night, I totally could have gotten a bowl of icecream whilst David was sleeping and no one would have ever known. But I didn't! I am actually kindof hungry right now, but I'm going to get a class of water or something I guess.
Today I didn't want to eat breakfast. Not one little bit. I forced myself to. I think the one thing about this plan I don't like is that I have to eat even when I'm not hungry, or when I'm full. I don't understand that part, really.
So, Food Plan for today:
Breakfast:
4 oz oatmeal
6 oz fresh berries
8 oz milk (blended up with the berries. It was alright, but I just wanted to chug it b/c I didn't want to eat)
Lunch:
12 oz salad (which I am so not in the mood to eat now at ALL)
6 oz berries
1 oz pepperoni
1 egg
.25 oz cheese
2 TBS Balsamic Vinaigrette (remind me and I will get you some sometime this week)
Dinner
4 oz rice
4 oz meat
6 oz squash, 6 oz califlower
.25 oz butter, .5 oz sour cream (for the califlower! i'm going to blend it up like mashed potatoes!)
I liked the meeting last night. I did feel somewhat out of place, because while I think I do have issues with food, I'm not sure they are to the extremes that some people have. I dunno. It is insane to me that people stay on this plan for 10 years and don't cheat ever. I guess it will take some getting used to, the idea of never having things again. I don't know if I will be able to do it, let alone WANT to do it, especially when I reach my goal weight. What is the diet like once you get to your goal weight? Because if its just more food, not sure I can do that. Its SO MUCH FOOD already!
Only. . . . 9 more days till I can weigh in! Is it sick I'm looking forward to it? Probably.
Also, I forgot my guidebook thing at home . . . what was the first question we needed to answer? I read all the stuff, I just didn't get to doing the question.
okay so for the first question go read 2 Nephi: 18-21. then answer these questions:
ReplyDeleteDo you feel encompassed or trapped? when do you feel this way most often?
What situations or feelings awakened you so you gave in to your addiction?
When Nephi felt overwhelmed, in whom did he place his trust? What can you do to place more trust in the Lord?
And yes, some people are intense in the program. I like that say, give it 6 visits so you can get a real sense of the what the program is really like...last night was not the best meeting I've been too, but still good. Also, don't think about it as forever. Can you committ today to living an abstinent day? Yes? great...then we'll worry about tomorrow, tomorrow. It's not that you "can't" have these things ever again...you are activly choosing to live a better, saner, more full life today. You can have all of those other things you want, but you are choosing not to eat them today. Hope that helps!