Tracy Day Eight

I had a crazy start to our day and didn't have time to sit down this morning, but here is what the plan is/was for today:

breakfast
4 oz milk, 4 oz yogurt
4 oz mixed berries
2 ezekiel bread

lunch
2 oz cheese
6 oz carrots, 6 oz v8
1/2 oz ranch
1/2 apple

dinner
4 oz black beans, 1/2 oz cheese
2 corn tortillas
6 oz salad (lettuce, tomato, & salsa) 6 oz sauted bell peppers and onions
1 oz sour cream

Sab Day 7 & 8

Okay, yesterday I fasted. For dinner i had:
4 oz potroast
4.5 oz mashed potatoes
12 oz cooked carrots and onion and a small salad


Today:
Breakfast:
4 oz frozen fruit
2 rice cakes
8 oz milk

Lunch:
4 oz chicken
12 oz cooked carrots
1 clementine

Dinner:
4 oz potroast
4 oz mashed potatoes
12 oz broccoli

Tracy Day Seven

I think I felt so fat yesterday because I was wearing pants that button and I haven't done that in a really long time. It's a little discouraging knowing that I could have changed pants sizes that fast when it took me so long to get down. Argh. But, that is okay because the weight doesn't define me. And it will come off. I just have to be patient and keep it up. Here is what I will eat today:

Breakfast
8 oz milk
2 oz Kashi dry cereal
1 banana

Lunch
2 oz chicken, 1 oz peanut butter
6 oz salad (lettuce, tomato, celery, carrots) 6 oz celery
1/2 oz ranch
1 apple

Dinner
4 oz scrambled eggs
2 corn tortillas
8 oz zucchini, squash, onion, 4 oz salsa
1 oz sour cream

1 Thing I like:
I can laugh at myself for doing something stupid

3 Things I'm grateful for:
1. A husband whose not ashamed his wife isn't a "professional" anything...
2. For three beautiful kids that love me.
3. The scriptures...they always bring me back around to what's important.

Sab Day Six

Okay, so I have to go to Walmart today to stock up on Milk and some veg and Yogurt b/c we are OUT. I don't know if we have EVER gone thru an entire gallon of milk (other than like a month in utah where i was drinking like 5 cups a day. . . I just craved milk. It was so odd). and we did this time! Yay for morning smoothies!

Last night I ate too many veggies b/c the wonderful Miguels broght over a party platter of veggies and it was delish and I just couldn't stop. NO REGETS.

I went to a birthday party for a 3 year old this morning, and forgot/didn't have time to eat breafast before I went. I didn't eat any cake which was a feat. I did eat:

2 cheese sticks
1  box of rasins
Water
So that was my breakfast

Lunch:
4 oz chicken
V8
Random leftover veggies from last night

Dinner:
4 oz chicken
Salad
Veggies
Rice

I am really tired, so I'm gonna maybe take a nap, then go to walmart, then come home and bake a cake if I have time. I wonder what time you need me. . . . I should probably text you, huh?

Greatful
David doesn't care if I toot around him.
I am really so close to being done with my Batchelors (and it won't take me TOO long to finish)
My husband works extra hard on Saturdays so that we won't be dirt poor.

Like about myself:
That I have pretty bodacious mucles under all this chub

Tracy Day Six

I had a talk with my sponsor yesterday and she really wants me to just stick with the food plan she gave me, and if I haven't lost enough weight she'll talk to me then about changing it. I don't know how I feel. I think it's too much fruit and I will probably only eat 4 oz of berries with breakfast. we'll see how i feel at lunch. i still am sore from my workout on THursday but I still went to the gym yesterday and did some cardio. I'm going to try and work it out today too. Here is my plan:

breakfast
4 oz milk, 4 oz yogurt
1 oz dry oats
6 oz berries

lunch
1 oz cheese, 2 oz chicken
8 oz salad (lettuce, tomato, onion, bell peppers), 4 oz raw veggies (carrots and celery)
6 oz grapes
1/2 oz ranch

dinner
(we're going to a restaraunt called "Smoke" and I've already looked at their menu:) )
4 oz steak
4 oz potato
3 oz cooked veggies (whatever they have), 4 oz salad, 5 oz raw veggies (I'll bring these)
1/2 oz butter, 1/2 oz balsamic

1 thing I like about myself:
My eyes

3 things I'm grateful for:
1. Free passes to the aquarium
2. Free dinner to a nice restaraunt
3. Friends who will babysit for us so we can go to dinner. ;)

Sab Day 5

Alright, so last night I had a salad at dinner, which was covered in dressing. I should have sent it back, but it was at Studio Movie Grill. I felt pretty gross after and haven't felt very good this morning. I also didn't have enough protien and feel very tired today.

Plan for today:
Breakfast:
4 oz fruit
8 oz milk
1 oz dry oatmeal

Lunch:
.75 oz cheese
12 oz soup (I need to get rid of it b/c I'm trying not to keep food here anymore. Long story)
2.5 oz meat (I will have to scrounge for this)
1 clementine (or not. we'll see)

Dinner:
4 oz steak
4 oz potato
12 oz veggies (broccoli and salad)

Tracy Day Five

Today went pretty well. I kept uber busy and I was really glad I had planned and made my lunch the night before. I kind of wish I had made my dinner the night before too cause I wound up eating at someone else's house and it was harder to control. I think I did pretty well considering what it was and I didn't eat any fruit for lunch either. And I worked out...I worked out hard! I'm pretty sure I'm gonna be unable to walk tomororw.

Anyways, here is my food for tomorrow:

breakfast:
8 oz milk
4 oz mixed berries
1 oz dry oatmeal, cooked

lunch
2 oz hot dog, 1 oz cheese
4 oz spagetti sauce, 10 oz zucchini, squash, and onion
1/2 oz ranch

dinner
4 oz talapia
4 oz rice
7 oz green beans, 7 oz salad (lettuce, tomato, onion, bell peppers, carrots)
1 oz balsamic dressing

1 thing I like about myself:
I find joy in serving others.

3 things I'm grateful for:
1. An unlimited supply of second-chances from Heavenly Father
2. Hot, hot, hot bubble baths
3. Muscles that ache because you worked out hard...it means I did something right!

Tracy Day Four

My plan for tomorrow is thus:

Breakfast
8 oz milk
4 oz mixed berries
1 oz oatmeal, dry & cooked

Lunch
2 oz peanut butter
4 oz broccoli, 1.5 oz salsa, 3.5 oz carrots, 5 oz celery
1/2 oz ranch

Dinner
(I wasn't sure if we were still doing meatload tomorrow night but I forgot to tell you that I won't have a car tomorrow night. Eddie is teaching a Kaplan class and will have the car. In case it doesn't work out, I'll eat:)
4 oz Chicken
4 oz potato
4 oz salad (lettuce, tomato, bell peppers), 10 broccoli
1/2 oz balsamic dressing, 1/2 oz sour cream

1 thing I like about myself:
I look like my mother.

3 things I'm grateful for:
1. Turbo Jam (best workout ever!)
2. Pyo (second best workout ever!)
3. A body that lets me exercise.

Sab Day 4.2

So I didn't end up eating chocolate.
I did end up eating Tortilla Chips, which I am okay with.

Plan for tomorrow:
Breakfast:
4 oz frozen fruit
1 oz dry oatmeal (cooked)
8 oz milk

Lunch:
12 oz cucumber
4 oz pork
2 clementines

Dinner:
No clue at this point. We are going to Studio Movie Grill for dinner/a movie, so I'll probably get a salad. Awesome. I'll bring a V8 with me and maybe a cheese stick to add to the protein. We'll see.

CHOCOLATTTEEEEE

I'm watching I Used To Be Fat so that I can maybe possibly not eat the chocolate that is calling out to me.

Its not helping.

Its hard b/c I'm at work all night and I have nothing to distract me and AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

There is icecream in the Freezer.
Dr. Pepper in the cabinent.
Chocolate scattered all over the house.

AHHHHHHH.

I don't want to be fat.
I want to be skinny
and HEALTHY
and not eat chocolate.
Chocolate is GROSS.

The end.

Sab Day 3

Okay, I gotta start back in on my nighttime routine and do this before I'm going to bed.

Weds Feb 23
Breakfast:
4 oz fruit
8 oz milk
1 oz dry oatmeal, cooked (it was like 3.8 oz I think)

Lunch:
4 oz pork
4 oz fruit
12 oz cucumber

Dinner:
2.5 oz ground beef, .75 oz cheese
12 oz veggies
4 oz rice

I like about myself:
The fact that I make really good cake

Grateful For:
Money to buy healthy food with
The fact that we have a trip fund with money in it
David has a job he loves which makes him happier at home

Tracy Day Three

Thank you for coming over last night and providing adult interaction. It was perfect. Today is gonna be a good day.I can feel it. Here is the plan:

Breakfast
4 oz yogurt, 4 oz milk
1 oz dry oats, cooked
4 oz mixed berries

Lunch
1.5 oz chicken, 1.25 oz cheese
4 oz spagetti sauce, 10 oz asparagus, zuccini and squash
1/2 oz ranch

Dinner
1.5 oz cheese, 1 oz bacon
2 corn tortillas
4 oz lettuce, 4 oz tomato, 6 oz broccoli
1 oz mayo dressing

Day Dos

Okay, so last night I went to bed at 6pm. I felt terrible and had a headache and was tired, so I just went to bed. David made me get up at 9 and eat some chicken and a V8 so I wouldn't wake up starving. I also went and took my phone in, so I have my old phone so I have no phone numbers. So text me so I can have your number.

Tuesday, Feb 22
Breakfast:
4 oz fruit
8 oz milk
2 rice cakes

Lunch:
4 oz ground beef
12 oz cooked veggies (I have to go to the grocery store to see what I want)
2 clementines

Dinner:
4 oz pork chop
4 oz rice
12 oz broccoli

1 thing I like about myself:
My hair, on the third day after I've washed and straightened it

3 things I'm greatful for:
That I have okayish health
That David is sweet to me when I'm a grumpyface
That I have a cute baby to nanny, instead of an ugly one.

Tracy Journal 2/22

So I don't really have the time right now to put into words what I'm feeling and thinking. But I couldn't let this opportunity pass without at least posting this:

"You will see the tender mercies of the Lord in your life as you learn to watch for them and as you come to believe that the power of God can indeed help you recover."

I definitely felt the tender mercies of the Lord as I struggled with a raging headache all day and a desire to just sleep the day away. Somehow, some way, I found the courage to ask the Lord to help me confront the day and get moving. I found such an excitement and joy in my heart and I woke up this morning ready to do it again. I am so thankful for a Savior that is mindful of us and just waits for us to ask for help.

I had an amazing experience this morning baring testimony to my children of the reality of Jesus Christ and it is one I'll treasure forever.

Tracy Day 2

Here is my plan for tomorrow:

breakfast
4 oz milk, 4 oz yogurt
4 oz mixed berries
2 oz oatmeal (weigh dry and then cook)

lunch
2 oz chicken, 1 oz cheese
8 oz salad (lettuce, bell peppers, carrots, celery), 6 oz raw carrots and celery
1 oz balsamic dressing

dinner
4 oz chicken
4 oz rice
8 oz cooked asparagus, 6 oz salad (lettuce, bell peppers, carrots)
1 oz balsamic dressing

3 things I'm grateful for:
1. a loving Heavenly Father who answers my prayers
2. a loving husband who supports me and helps me with my goals.
3. good friends who make me smile.

1 thing I like about myself:
1. when I eat right and am productive I feel skinnier.

Tracy's update

so I actually did it! I feel amazing!!!!

However, I did eat something different for dinner than I had originally planned. I ate:

2 oz pork, 3 oz blk beans
4 oz rice
12 oz raw veggies
1 oz sour cream

I've already packed my lunch for tomorrow and written down what I will eat. I'm actually really excited. It's kind of crazy how good I feel right now. I wish I could bottle it up and pull it out anytime I begin to doubt or question this process.

I also checked out flylady.net today and I totally loved it. I even made my own control journal and I'm so excited to get my house in order and peace. I worked hard today and it feels wonderful.

Tracy Day One

I'm tired. Never a good way to start the day. But I'm feeling ready to get this party started. ;) Day One. Here we go.

The plan:

breakfast
8 oz milk
2 oz dry cereal
1 small banana

lunch
2 oz turkey, 1 oz cheese
14 oz raw veggies (lettuce, tomatoe, carrots, celery)
1/2 oz salad dressing

dinner
4 oz chicken
4 oz rice
6 oz cooked asparagus, 8 oz salad
1/2 oz salad dressing

1 Thing I like about myself:
I'm friendly

3 Things I'm grateful for:
1. A house
2. A comfy bed
3. A dishwasher

Dayyyyyyy ONNNNNEEEEEE

Monday, Feb 21, 2010
This is the plan.
Breakfast:
2 rice cakes
4 oz frozen fruit
8 oz milk

Lunch:
12 oz spinach, onion and mushroom
2 clemtines (this is about 5 oz total)
4 oz ground beef
.5 oz olive oil

Dinner:
12 oz broccoli
4 oz pork
4 oz rice
.5 oz olive oil

Thing I like about myself:
The fact that I have ankles, not cankles, even if my calves are huge.

Grateful For:
David's cute butt (just that specific part of him)
The iPod hook up in my car.
The new fruit bowl I got that has a banana hanger! YAAAY!

One Day at a Time

So, this is the part of the plan I struggle with the most. That its just one day at a time. That I don't need to look down the road to the future, I just need to focus on the now. This is really hard for me because I am SUCH a planner. I have a 5 year plan I tweak every time anything changes. I love to know whats going to happen and when its going to happen.

I am staying over at work tonight, which I didn't decide until just now, so I have no food for tomorrow, and no scale to weigh it on. It so much easier just to say I'll start on Friday, or Saturday or Sunday or Monday. I don't know what I want to do. It has been made very apparent that I have issues with food, since in my head I rationalize every little thing I eat, but I have a really hard time confronting that issue.

I did so well in the start, that it is really disappointing to not be doing well now. I really need to do a menu plan for next week and go grocery shopping on Saturday. I think I am going to eat on-plan foods tomorrow and Friday, but probably not weigh (tomorrow = no food here and friday we are going out for David's b-day) and start fresh and new on Saturday. I just HAVE to make myself do a menu and I HAVE to make myself go grocery shopping. I just have to do it. I need to do it. For my sanity. For myself. I need to stop having food be an issue. I need to be free of the terrible feelings of letting myself down every time I put something I shouldn't into my mouth.

David and I sat down and did a "control journal" and I need to follow it. Have you heard of flylady.net? Its awesome and we are trying to implement some of their stuff in our home. I am just sick of it being messy all the time (you saw it on Monday!). Urg!

I just want to feel in control of my life. And I will. I WILL. I am going to do a plan. I am going to follow the plan. I am going to be happy, and do my best.

Tracy Day 23

So yesterday...I ate the normal breakfast and then fasted through lunch and dinner. I just needed some peace in my soul and I didn't know how else to get it. I woke up this morning feeling much more calm and stable. I feel ready for the day.

With that, here is my plan for today:

breakfast
4 oz scrambled eggs
2 pcs ezekiel bread
1 banana

lunch
2 oz turkey, 1 oz cheese
12 oz raw veggies (4 oz lettuce, 4 oz tomato, 4 oz cucumber)
1 oz asian dressing
6 oz grapes

dinner
4 oz chicken
4 oz rice
8 oz zuccini, 4 oz spagetti sauce
1 oz sour cream

Tracy Day 21

breakfast
8 oz milk
2 oz dry cereal
1 banana

lunch
2 oz chicken, 1 oz cheese
8 oz cabbage, 3 oz zuccini, 1 oz spagetti sauce
1 oz asian dressing
2 oz dry fruit

dinner
3 oz blk beans, 1 oz cheese
4 oz popcorn
6 oz sauted bell peppers & onion, 2 oz tomato, 1 oz lettuce, 3 oz salsa
1 oz sour cream

so i weighed in on the first and it was 194. 2 lbs. shoot me now.

Sab Day 20, 21 and Weigh In

Okay, snow days = going stir crazy.
Day 20
Breakfast:
8 oz milk
1 orange
1 rice cake

Lunch:
4 oz hotdog
1 pear
12 oz veggies

Dinner:
2 oz fish
4 oz sugar free icecream
5.5 oz v8
1 oz rice
(I was going to throw up if I ate anymore)

We played Just Dance 2 for like an hour and I was SO tired and hurt so bad because I am still sickly, and it sucked. But it was really really fun.

Day 21:
Breakfast:
8 oz milk
6 oz berries
1 rice cake

Lunch:
5.5 oz v8
6.5 oz soup
4 oz hotdog
1 pear

Dinner:
I have no idea at this point, but it will be the right stuff. My boss is making a cabbage-stew type thing, but I brought food with me incase. Oh yeah, I'm spending the night b/c I have no car to get home b/c my Dad dropped me off b/c he has four wheel drive and the roads are HORRIBLE. Ugh. But its okay. I'm having an okay day, just watching movies and hanging out with Emma.

So, official weigh in on Feb 1: 163.2! I am ahead of schedule! I would love to lose 5 pounds this month and be 157 by March 1. If I am down to 155 by the time we go to Disney, I will poop my pants! Thats what I weighed when we got married! WOOHOOOO!