Day 62

breakfast
4 oz milk, 4 oz yogurt
4 oz mixed fruit
1 oz dry oats, cooked

lunch
2 oz peanut butter
9 oz cabbage, 5 oz celery and carrots
1/2 oz asian dressing

dinner
2 oz bacon, 1 oz cheese
4 oz potato
8 oz broccoli, 3 oz salsa, 3 oz carrots
1/2 oz sour cream

Day 52

Breakfast
4 oz milk, 4 oz yogurt
4 oz fruit
1 oz dry oats

Lunch
2 oz chicken, 1 oz cheese
9 oz cabbage, 5 oz cucumber and snappeas and carrots
1/2 oz oil

Dinner
3 oz ground turkey, 1/2 oz cheese
10 oz zucchini, squash, onion, and 4 oz spagetti sauce
1/2 oz oil
3 rice cakes

With God's help and my willingness, I'll have a day of abstinence.

3 Things I'm grateful for:
1. That I can still fit 5 kids in my car comfortably so that when I have to help a friend unexpectantly, I can.
2. That my inclination is to be forgiving and give the benefit of the doubt.
3. That my husband can forgive me when I make mistakes and will always love me when I doubt I deserve his love.

Tracy day 51

Breakfast
4 oz milk, 4 oz yogurt
2 oz dry cereal
1 banana

Lunch
2 oz chicken, 1 oz cheese
9 oz cabbage, 5 oz cucumber and carrots
1/2 oz oil dressing

Dinner
4 oz chicken
4 oz rice
10 oz bell peppers, onion, zucchini, 4 oz salad
1/2 oz oil dressing

Tracy Day 48

Breakfast
4 oz milk, 4 oz yogurt
4 oz fruit
1 oz dry oats

Lunch
2 oz Chicken, 1 oz cheese
10 oz sauted veggies, 4 oz cucumber and carrots
1/2 oz oil

Dinner
3 oz sausage, 1/2 oz cheese
10 oz cooked zucchini and squash and onion, 4 oz spagettie sauce
3 rice cakes
1/2 oz oil

3 things I'm grateful for:
1. That we don't have a dvd player in the car anymore because I get to hear the kids look out the window and say, "I see bluebonnets" "I see purple ones" "I see pink!"
2. That with Earth's calamaties and heartaches around the world, there is still beauty and touchstones of our Father's love for us.
3. That my children are loving. They require a hug and a kiss before bed everynight and every morning before Eddie leaves for work.
4. And an extra because my heart is full of gratitude this morning: that I've woken up early every morning to a quiet house where I can get on my knees have a meaningful prayer. I am NOT a morning person, and I know this is a gift from a loving Heavenly Father.

1 thing I like about myself:
1. I enjoy serving others.
with gods help and my willingness i will have a day of abstinence

Tracy Day 47

Breakfast
8 oz protein drink
3 rice cakes
1 banana

Lunch
2 oz chicken, 1 oz cheese
9 oz cabbage, 5 oz cucumber, snapeas
1 oz asian dressing

Dinner
4 oz talapia
4 oz rice
10 stir fry veggies (Carrots, snapeas, onion, red bell pepper), 4 oz raw veggies
1 oz oil

1 reason I like myself:
I can pour a mean thing of bacon grease without spilling. ;)

3 things I'm grateful for:
1. That we were able to financially afford to sell the van and get a car we can afford.
2. That we listened to the Spirit and got the car that is in our means rather than the car we want.
3. That we can pray and recieve revelation and communication from on high, even in regards to something "mortal" like getting a car.

Tracy Day 46

breakfast
2 eggs
3 rice cakes
1 small banana

lunch
2 oz ground turkey, 1 oz cheese
9 oz salad, 5 oz sauted bell peppers and onions
1 oz sour cream

dinner
2 oz bacon, 1 oz cheese
4 oz potato
9 oz broccoli, 3 oz salsa, 2 oz cucumber
1 oz sour cream

1 reason I like myself:
I'm forgiving

3 things I'm grateful for:
1. That I get to be a mom to my three children and stay home to raise them and teach them and love them.
2. That my own mother stayed home to raise me and left me a legacy of faith and kindness. She truly taught each of us to be kind to everyone and to love and lift those around you. She could walk into a grocery store bathroom and walk out with a new best friend.
3. That my dad reads his scriptures everyday. He is such an example to me of quiet faith that can move mountains. He is my hero and I love him so dearly.

Tracy Day 45

I need to figure out how to fall asleep without taking exedrin p.m.

The plan:

Breakfast
4 oz milk, 4 oz yogurt
4 oz fruit
1 oz dry oats

Lunch
2 oz chicken, 1 oz cheese
9 oz cabbage, 5 oz cucumber/carrots
1 oz oil

Dinner
3 oz ground turkey, 1/2 oz cheese
3 rice cakes
7 oz salad, 7 oz sauted bell peppers and onions
1 oz sour cream

1 reason I like myself:
I encourage my kids to not quit

3 things I'm grateful for:
1. I stayed up and did the dishes even though I was tired and wanted to go to bed.
2. I was hungry all day, but still didn't eat anything.
3. That I have a sister who is my best friend and will call to check on me regularly.

Tracy day 44

Let the games begin!

Breakfast
4 oz milk, 4 oz yogurt
4 oz mixed berries
1 oz dry oats

Lunch
1 oz cheese, 2 oz sausage
5 oz cooked carrots, 7 oz raw veggies(carrots, celery, cucumber)
1/2 oz dressing

Dinner
4 oz Chicken
4 oz Rice
7 oz cooked green beans, 7 oz salad
1/2 oz salad dressing

1 Reason I like myself:
I haven't quit yet

3 Things I'm grateful for:
1. General conference
2. My husband
3. My children

Tracy Day 40

40 sounds so long...Only 50 more to go. ;)

the plan:

breakfast
8 oz protein drink
2 oz dry oats
1 pear

lunch
2 oz chicken, 1 oz cheese
9 oz cabbage, 3 oz cucumber
1 oz asian dressing
1/2 apple (sprinkled with cinnamon)

dinner
4 oz talapia
4 oz rice
7 oz salad (lettuce, tomato, cucumber, carrots, celery) and 5 oz cooked carrots
1/2 oz salad dressing

Tracy 39

Last night was so nice...thank you for being my friend. I can't wait to hear how you are feeling today and if you've changed your mind again. ;)

the plan:

breakfast
4 oz milk, 4 oz yogurt
5 oz mixed berries
2 oz dry cereal

lunch
1 oz cheese, 1 oz peanut butter
5 oz tomato soup, 7 oz cabbage salad
1/2 apple
1 oz asian dressing

dinner
4 oz blk bean, 1/2 cheese
2 corn tortillas
3 oz lettuce, 3 oz tomato & onion, 2 oz salsa, 6 oz sauted bell peppers
1 oz sour cream

Tracy 38

YES PLEASE!!! Please come over and I'll just have some extra food in case you want it. Here is what I'm having today:

breakfast
1 protein drink
1 banana
2 oz dry granola

lunch
1 oz cheese, 2 oz chicken
9 oz cabbage, 3 oz cucumber
1 oz asian dressing
3 oz grapes, 2 oz oranges

dinner
4 oz teriyaki chicken
4 oz rice
9 oz sauted veggies, 3 oz cucumber
1 oz oil

This Week

I am not going to re-commit. Because I am deciding if I am going to stay at this job. And I feel sick. Constantly. So I don't think I will be ABLE to eat. I am going to try to eat on plan when I DO eat, but this morning I almost had to pull over to throwup before I got here, and I don't want to feel like that every day.

Ugh. Can I come over for dinner on Tuesday? I might not eat anything, but I need to be around friends.

Tracy Day 36

I didn't realize how long it's been since I recorded here and I find it amazing how correlated it is with how my days go...I've felt my committment slip internally but I not actually tempted to eat "off program" other than I REALLLY REALLLLLLLY wanted a diet coke. I've stayed true and I'm so glad I have. I read some really interesting "testimonials" in the back of the AA Big Book and it kind of put some things into perspective for me. When I fail to report, I'm slipping back into the "solitary" lifestyle that is of an addict. So today I will eat:

breakfast
4 oz scrambled eggs
2 corn tortillas
1 banana

lunch
none (at church)

dinner
4 oz chicken
4 oz rice
8 oz zucchini and squash and onion, 4 oz cucumber
1 oz oil
3 oz pears

Day 3?

Ugh.
So coming back from vacation is not fun. Esp when your job is no longer as fun as it once was. And yeah. I am really tired.

Today I haven't eaten b/c I'm not sure I can eat and stay on plan. I know it sounds retarded, but there you have it. I kept myself from getting a cheeseburger today and that was a massive effort. I didn't eat dinner last night b/c I felt really nauseous. I will try to eat dinner tonight. I have all the food at home, I just need to eat it.

So yeah. I am struggling. Mostly b/c I need to re-commit and just suck it up and do it. We'll see how it goes. I am trying to not be in the food but its really really hard today. Which is why I haven't eaten at all.

YOU ARE OVER A MONTH SOBER! Yaaay! Haha. I like using the word Sober in reguards to food.

I think the other reason I'm having problems is b/c I do feel like I've lost a ton of weight and I need to not be okay with where I am now. I know I still have weight to lose! I know! And I know this is about more than the weight - its about being in control of MYSELF. Having selfcontrol is so hard for me, and its something I need to learn how to do before I have kids. And so I need to do this!

Okay, so today, I've eaten nothing. I will eat rice and chicken and veggies tonight, if I feel like I can. If I can't, I'll start tomorrow.

Thanks for being awesome!

Tracy Day 32

Sabrina...where did you go? You okay?

breakfast
4 oz milk,4 oz protein drink
1/2 apple
2 oz dry cereal

lunch
1 oz cheese, 1 oz peanut butter
7 oz cooked broccoli, 3 oz celery, 2 oz cucumber
1 pear

dinner
4 oz talapia
4 oz rice
8 oz cooked zucchini & squash, 4 oz cucumber
1/2 oz ranch

Tracy Day 31

breakfast
6 oz milk, 1/2 oz cheese
2 oz dry cereal
3 oz strawberries

lunch
3 oz chicken, 1/2 oz cheese
9 oz cabbage, 3 oz cucumber
1 oz asian dressing
1 oz dry fruit

dinner
4 oz chicken
4 oz rice
8 oz brocolli, 4 oz salad
1/2 oz ranch

Tracy 30!!!!!

I did it! Today is day 30!!!! Woot-woot!

Okay, down to the nitty-gritty:

breakfast
4 oz milk, 4 oz yogurt
4 oz mixed fruit
2 oz dry cereal

lunch
3 oz chicken, 1/2 oz cheese
6 oz salad, 6 oz carrots
1/2 oz dressing

dinner
3 oz bacon, 1/2 cheese
4 oz potato
8 oz broccoli, 4 oz salsa
1 oz sour cream

Day 1

So, yesterday I ended up having a really grumpyface day and didn't weigh my food for dinner, so today is day 1

Breakfast:
Small banana
8 oz milk
1 oz oatmeal

Lunch:
4 oz meat/beans
12 oz veggies (I made mushrooms and onions yesterday which will be added to my leftover chili's green bell peppers and onions)
4 oz orange juice (no sugar added)

Dinner:
12 oz veggies (prob a mix of salsa and celery)
4 oz chips
8 oz milk

Does it seem like I'm being lazy with my food today? Thats because I am. I forgot how much getting back on when you've been off sucks. I really just want to eat some candy and a dr. pepper but i'm being strong! The tired and the headache WILL go away!

Tracy Day 28

breakfast
3 oz milk, 5 oz yogurt
3 oz strawberries, 3 oz banana
2 oz dry oats

lunch
2 oz turkey, 1 oz cheese
8 oz salad, 4 oz carrots
1/2 oz salad dressing
6 oz cantalope

dinner
4 oz scrambled eggs
4 oz potato
8 oz sauted bell peppers & onion, 4 oz salsa
1 oz sour cream

Tracy Day 27

breakfast
4 oz milk, 4 oz yogurt
4 oz mixed fruit
1 oz oatmeal, dry and cooked

lunch
1 oz cheese, 1 oz peanut butter
6 oz broccoli, 6 oz celery
3 oz strawberry

Dinner
4 oz chicken
4 oz rice
8 oz sauted bell peppers and onions, 4 oz cucumber & celery
1 oz oil